WAVES

Waves are used as a metaphor for the dramatic crashes of sound with wearing hearing aids off and on.

This poem was written during a deep isolating depression of not wanting to have to chose to hear or not to hear any more. During this time I recognized that mental health goes through waves which are directly tied to the acceptance of my disability.

in waves

the silences are too loud

the sounds are too disorienting

i submerge myself into dark water,

gushing streams

flames flicker a violent scream

hollowed walls sliced tongues

voices evaporate

mine dissolves

i recede into the sea, i see

braided skin and polished eyes

shaking bones without their rattle

feet that stomp & children who smile

the water laps around my head

i stare at the machines, i fear suffocation

this is forever

between befores afters

again and again

crashing cycles

here we are

in waves.